I suppose, in highschool I first imagined being a writer, but I never committed.Adjusting Sensibility allows me the opportunity to practice, rehearse and communicate more effectively.
This morning Bruce Kasanoff’s suggested “repetition is powerful, use it wisely.” It was a point I emphasized in my Goldilocks is a genius talk last week. After spending my weekend struggling to write, it also reminded me that practice always helps, but it’s not enough.
Purpose matters, and the ability to see differences yourself that yields progress.
I never learned grammar rules well. They annoyed me, they got in the way of my thinking aloud and desire to be creative, and imaginative in my writing. Today, I read a note aobut courage and another about It’s more likley that unconsciously I was insecure, less confident about everything. I did many things, and the easy stuff that came and most naturally, happened out of school in organizations and with people.
Today, maybe there’s a university that grants degrees in leadership, especially since so many claim to be effective teaching the subject. Personally, I fought taking on the mantle and continue to enjoy being a collaborator. I now know that leadership terrifies me, becasue I beleive leaders need to be clear in their vision, confident in their situational assessment and unwavering in their commitment to their team and the mission.
Several times I held project and team leadership responsibilities, I found myself sabotaged. My team didn’t challenge me or push back, it was my associates and peers in other roles or parts of the organization, and even at times my own boss.It wasn’t that they disagreed. More often it was the changes that the success of my intiaitve implied for them, changes they didn’t want to make, even if the changes actively improved the organization’s positioning. Now occassionally, they had better sight lines than I did. Just as often however they didn’t want to ponder the implications and preferred to shut down the intitiave, impede changesthat disrupted the smooth steady flow of their own projects.
Professionally, and personally, I had been taught not to speak out of turn, and that it was best to find the right time and place to raise objections. In other words, a public meeting may not be the first time to challenge a colleague or a superior.
Many people are surprised most by the passion and persistence that occassionally emerges when I do feel in command of my subject. It rouses and inspires them. Unfortuanately I don’t feel that consistently, so many who know me, see and experience something else. That voice needs confidence to speak, it needs purpose. I may love an idea but until I know what to do with it, then it’s just a vague notion.
At present, in particular this post, I decided to share how using my voice in prose also helped me overcome confusion and reconcile inconsistencies in my thoughts and actions.
It’s not what you know, but what you practice that counts
Grammar annoyed me. It was a dull subject with seemingly annoying rules and my bad experiences stopped me from learning. I did well in school but not as well in English, becasue I never fully assimilated the basic lessons. Rather than learning how to improve, I got angry at all my mistakes and lost my confidence and along the way muffled my voice too.
I recognized great writers by thir prose and persuasive narrative but never saw the effects of the underlying grammar unless, the author exaggerated it for affect. My inability to see these signs meant I didn’t try and work them out for myself until decades later. My writing remained less effective, less convincing and less committed.
In contrast, my graduate professor in statistics challenged my lack of commitment to learning and excelling in her classs. I spent hours in the math library learning the notation to keep up with the matrix algebra that execeeded my formal math studies in basic calculus. I learned to feel the different effects that only practice produces. Likelihood tests and probability colors my thinking and establishes clarity that today I appreciate as akin to the effects of active prose.
Our will, our intention and our purpose expresses the likelihood of our followthrough.My senior year in highschool I took an advanced literature course from an english teacher my oldest brother revered. I like to think she drummed out the word I from my prose.
For decades, the pronoun One replaced I. Yes, it was gender neutral and I think that was its one saving grace. In additio to the distance it added to my voice, I no longer expressed my thoguhts or feelings but rather the thoughts, feelings or actions by those omnipresent, or omnicient–the ones.
It’s fine to use third person. After all, this voice appears most most commonly in storytales. Goldilocks does, so do the bears, and so does Red Riding Hood, Hansel and Gretel every other character. What makes the story work for me is it’s use of active voice, that allows the reader to play along AS IF they too were that character. It’s in the active, direct prose that I now recognize but missed understanding and thus failed to practice.
More directly, my present experiences and payment for writing made me up my game. It made me commit to learning and understanding.
Let me correct that. The faith of the marketer who offered me the job, in fairness had seen some of my writing but he also demonstrated the value of great prose. After submitting a very hasty first draft long on creativity and very short on grammar, I got a single request.
“Tighten it up.”
I had no idea what they meant,what I needed to change or where to begin. The last thing I needed to do was show my incompetence, so I turned to my colleagues of experienced writers to guide me.
One buddy asked “what’s your process?” I couldn’t answer that questions which led to a series of additional questions on both sides. The more I didn’t know the sooner I realized the depth of my inexperience. The downside of blogging? It’s the absence of direct feedback that makes you a better writer. Conceptually I knew about thesis statements but had never consciously tried to use them in a cogent, organized fashion.
Suddenly, years of prompts and suggestions made by lawyers and other active readers of my writring flooded back to me. My arguments were delayed, I had been a weak communicator becasue I overwhelemed the reader with detail and never disclosed my purpose clearly up front.
After struggling mightily alone, a friendly call arrived just in time. Another friend and occassional collaborator offerd to coach me through. She held my hand, read my prose and succinctly pointed to examples of indirect reasoning and endless rationalization; that could be summarized in a short direct phrase. She helped me see how my sentences would benefit from better grammar practices. Her beautuiful quick examples used the active voice. Another lightbulb helped me see more clearly what I needed to do and how to do it too!
Suddenly, I could see my poor grammar, my awkward phrasing, and my habits encircling a point and take the steps needed to correct them.
Tighten became a directive for simplicity. I could see where I confused presenting a fact and thinking aloud. My readers didn’t benefit from learning my situation that led up to the analysis, they cared about the analysis.
In closing, it’s easy to read good writing and it’s easy to understand too. If you know what you want to say, then you can write it, and you shouldn’t be shy about it either.
If you don’t then whatever you write will waste yhour reader’s time.
Blogs are fine for thinking out loud, exploring what you want to say. Do yourself and your readers a favor, before you hit publish, take your closing points and put them at the top. Then reread to be sure the prose you keep follows and supports that point.
Aat the very least, maybe, like me, it will allow you the practice needed to improve your writing. Why else do you blog, if not to communicate your thinking more effectively?